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一切都安排妥当了，时间一到提起行李，一步跨出生活，进入另个时空——你个人的电影开始了。 　　有人这样区分旅行和流浪：有目的地的叫旅行，没有目的地的就是流浪 。可有些人是以流浪方式旅行——出发时有大致的目的地，之后却随性而行 ，在一个地方可以待几天，也可以留几个月甚至几年，随时改变计划，停走全凭感觉。
　　这是旅行还是流浪？
　　找到一个词形容这种状态：浪游。
　　台湾作家里有很特别的一男一女，舒国治和钟文音，是我眼睛里的“浪游”者。
　　舒国治被视为文坛异数，散文绝妙，出书不多但叫好叫座，有固定读者群，《理想的下午》、《门外汉的京都》、《流浪集》甚至《台北小吃札记》，每出一本，“舒迷 ”们奔走相告。他的文字仿佛有治疗效果，制式环境里心为形役的都市人，抽空读一两篇他的好文，心情真的会风轻云淡地飘荡起来。为什么？文字精准几无赘言又轻简闲适的“舒式”文字风格背后，是某种“不可能”的生活实践——
　　拒绝进入工蚁般经济链的他没有正职，不买房子租屋而居，不置电脑用笔写稿，更重要的是，存款不满千元台币却丝毫没有酸腐气。他说自己虽不汲汲营营金钱财富，却颇努力思考要交出哪些东西给老天，绝对可算是个进取的好人。

　　初识舒国治是在《万象》上，读他写美国火车流浪者的长文，惊为天人。他也曾以记述美国公路的《遥远的公路》得过奖。当年去美国，他本想找工作定居，不料却以流浪方式过了整整七年，脚踪遍及44个州，大城小镇，多则停留一年以上，少则几个月。如今他浪游世界已几十年，无论在哪里，始终依着自己的节奏过所谓“轻简”生活：自在闲适地喝茶、吃饭、睡觉、走路。

好像就是为永远渴望着“出走”的你我他准备的，浪游的舒国治，是不是离你既近又远?

　　钟文音也算是台湾作家里的奇女子。女人通常结伴旅行，三毛住在撒哈拉沙漠，身边也还有个荷西。钟文音却和自己的影子作伴，一个人旅行。为了安抚自己的内在，也为了文学的渴求，她选择独自出走，以慢节奏的“半居游”方式，在不同的异城长时间生活，融入每一处旅地。
　　她习惯一遍遍走在当地的巷弄，看捷克工人施工修路，上海居民骑自行车，或到超市体验当地人的购买行为。
　　她说巴黎铁塔美，却不是巴黎人每天必待之处，反而一个咖啡座，一座桥，一次午夜的散步，更让人感受那里的可爱。她寻访文学艺术大师也亲近草民，笔下加德满都酒吧里绝望地要逃脱贫困的青年，第三世界国度网吧电脑前一双双泪光闪烁的眼睛，绝非观光客匆忙的心可以触摸。
　　游历十几年，走过五大洲，一次次抵达和离开，两年前结束挪威之旅回到台湾，她忽然感觉疲惫，终于发现“当初的奔走，都是为了留下”，旅行的终点其实是自己所处的岛屿，只有“以家为家”，才能给心灵单纯的宁静 ，这也是每个旅人无法拒绝的必经之途。
　　浪游，或许是造化较深的修行，普通上班族的旅行，只是短暂逃离。现代化程度愈高生活节奏愈快，愈是工作压力逼人的亚洲都会，人们愈依赖旅行。最新的一项调查显示：最爱旅游的是香港人，新加坡人紧随其后。
　　是的，没有旅行，你或许很难忍受日复一日年复一年的“螺丝钉”生活。而有些人上班，其实只是为了走得更远。
　　旅美华人作家张让最近有篇《旅人的时空》，说旅行的奥秘和魔力在于似真似幻：“旅人的时空和平常时空有点不同，因为大体上是假的，像个人自导自演的电影。你离家旅行进入电影，一切似真似幻；旅行完步出电影又回到现实生活，不着痕迹继续下去。有趣在那旅行电影又不完全是假的，而是一条旅人新创和现实并行的时空轴线，两个时空相互渗透对话，彼此注释参考，旅行因此是步出平常而又不全脱离现实，在某程度上失真却仍依存实在。这真假间的传递输送，让旅行这件事格外复杂有趣。旅行所以让人兴奋，多少和这内在的奇异性格有关。”
　　一切都安排妥当了，时间一到提起行李，一步跨出生活，进入另个时空——你个人的电影开始了。
　　多好，旅人的时空里，“你脱胎换骨，变成了另一个人。”

A letter written by a college girl to her parents. 

"Dear Mom and Dad, 

I have so much to tell you. Because of the fire in my dorm set off by student riots, I experienced temporary lung damage and  had to go to the hospital. While I was there, I fell in love with an orderly, and we have moved in together. I dropped out of school when I found out I was pregnant, and he got fired because of his drinking, so we're going to move to Alaska, where we might get married after the birth of our baby. 

Your loving daughter.

ps: none of this really happened, but I did flunk my chemistry class and I wanted to keep it in perspective."

What brilliance.

And indeed, we often focus too much on the situation on hand and lose our perspective. How important it is for us to zoom out from the situation and turn our eyes upon Jesus, who is bigger than our problems and worries :)

"Profound desire, true desire is the desire to be close to someone. From that point onwards, things change, the man and the woman come into play, but what happens before - the attraction that brought them together - is impossible to explain. It is untouched desire in its purest state.

When desire is still in this pure state, the man and the woman fall in love with life, they live each moment reverently, consciously, always  ready to celebrate the next blessing.

When people feel like this, they are not in a hurry, they do not precipitate events with unthinking actions. They know that the inevitable will happen, that what is real always finds a way of revealing itself. When the moment comes, they do not hesistate, they do not miss an opportunity, they do not let slip a single magic moment, because they respect the importance of each second."


when do we really fall in love with life, and always ready to celebrate the next blessing.
And do we have that true desire?

We have all experienced times of exaltation on the mountain, when we have seen things from God’s perspective and have wanted to stay there. But God will never allow us to stay there. The true test of our spiritual life is in exhibiting the power to descend from the mountain. If we only have the power to go up, something is wrong.

It is a wonderful thing to be on the mountain with God, but a person only gets there so that he may later go down and lift up the demon-possessed people in the valley (see Mark 9:14-18 ). We are not made for the mountains, for sunrises, or for the other beautiful attractions in life— those are simply intended to be moments of inspiration. We are made for the valley and the ordinary things of life, and that is where we have to prove our stamina and strength.

Yet our spiritual selfishness always wants repeated moments on the mountain. We feel that we could talk and live like perfect angels, if we could only stay on the mountaintop. Those times of exaltation are exceptional and they have their meaning in our life with God, but we must beware to prevent our spiritual selfishness from wanting to make them the only time.

We are inclined to think that everything that happens is to be turned into useful teaching. In actual fact, it is to be turned into something even better than teaching, namely, character. The mountaintop is not meant to teach us anything, it is meant to make us something. There is a terrible trap in always asking, "What’s the use of this experience?" We can never measure spiritual matters in that way. The moments on the mountaintop are rare moments, and they are meant for something in God’s purpose.

My Utmost for His Highest, Oswald Chambers